Well, it's odd now because after the rectification of the situation Thursday, we went out on the residual date Friday and it's like now she doesn't feel she has to impress me or anything and she is over it. That's good that she wasn't clingy but odd that the personality I perceive would change so much overnight. She had said during our talking that she has messed up all her previous relationships (including letting an 8-year marriage fester on even as her husband cheated on her multiple times) and likes to move from place to place to escape things. Maybe she is just escaping an unpleasant emotion or maybe not. I know I said I was not _ready_ for a relationship but I still wanted something (difference) so I am still feeling bad. I scratched myself like I used to but that is just out of habit, not serious.