I just got finish writing about book about what's going on with me. I just want someone to answer me. It's great to be welcomed...but I need someone to answer my post. I'm tired and I want to go back to bed. I just got up at 12:45pm. It's almost 2:00 and I'm ready to go lay back down. I'm don't know what to say I said it all in the depression thread. I almost couldn't find it again. 'But I did ...no one responded. I can't go into chat rooms cause I haven't posting more than five. I think I did but they say I did n't so here I'm posting again and reaching out again.
I relapsed after 8 years. No one in the rooms is coming up to me when I share it. I feel like a leper. I don't care cause I know that they are sick people and that they're selfcentered. But I just want a little stroking since I'm so depressed...that I dont' want to go to work and it's scaring me. I've been through this before. And I ended up losing my sobriety date. Now I'm going on 5 months..tomorrow it will be 5 months. Here I sit alone and for what. I'm not hurting anyone but myself. I just bought a brand new car....God is good to me. That I could be able to get a car after 2 years of taking the buses and trains...but here I sit and don't want to go out or stay out of my bed. I think I dug another ditch and I don't know how to get out of it. Please help me!