Recently I've just been in a downward spiral, my life has been crumbling beneath my feet and i feel like there is no one to catch me like there was a few of the other times this has happened.

I've been having thoughts of smoking which i have never smoked, i've had thoughts of cutting which i used to do compulsively but have not done for months until yesterday, and I've had thoughts of just leaving and never coming back.

I just don't know what to do anymore, i can't take this feeling it destroying every last inch of me!