kit, you fell off that horse and now you're back on....please don't minimize your accomplishment!! many of us didn't get it just right the first, second or third time, etc. (though for this recovering alcoholic, i would have liked to have gotten it right the first time). the important thing is that you're sober TODAY! that is an incredible miracle. there are many of us with d/a problems that never get/stay sober... and you know the outcome of such unfortunates..."jails, institutions, and death."
i am so happy for your 5 months of sobriety tomorrow. it brings back such good memories of my early successsful sobriety. just stay in TODAY and know that you are successfully doing what so few choose to accomplish. sad but true.
i lost my best friend to this disease. she was 45 and a mother of 5. i cannot tell you how very grateful i was to be sober. i grieve for her loss but know it could have been me instead. .."but for the grace of God".
congratulations on your road to recovery!