I was on depakote and stopped by myself. Although it was a exfriend, who told me that I wasn't sober since I was on meds. 6 in total prescibed by my pysch to help with my depression (bipolar). Limactal, geodan, paxil, along with the Depakote...oh I can't remember them all. I stopped taking the meds in
April 2008 and now I'm having a depressive episode. So I think, I haven't been to work in 2 weeks. Was is the blues of the Christmas expectations? My parents were they going to be drunk. I stopped taking the meds after trying to get off of them by going the a psych ward. I commited myself (I told them I was sucidental). and they didn't take me off them that was last July 2007. So I'm bad questioning myself. And I depressed or am I lazy. My psych told me that I was lazy that I was like a little kid that didn't want to get up and go to school. I'm afraid to go back to work. I'm in a funk. I don't want to go out of the house or get dressed or worst take a shower. I want to go and crawl back into my bed. I went backt to work in July 2008 after being on medical leave for 3 months (that's all they allow) I was doing great. Everyone loved me (I transferred from the other location due to fear of bullying from coworker). I was working so hard everyday. I came in really early and I stayed really late. I worked continueously all day, bearly stopping to go to the bathroom or eat something. One of my co-workers took it upon herself to dragged me out of the office to go to lunch. After a few months of that I was glad to have my lunch hour changed...this way I can stay and work. Now that I've finally settled into a desk of my own,the supervisor wants to relocate me upstairs where I won't be around the people I've gotten to know after these past months (since July). I will have to meet new people and I don't know what to expect. I guess I'm scared. I don't want to face this change. It may be a promotion but I don't care. I'm happy working where I am. Maybe that's the problem I'm having. Or the depression has just added to this situation. I'm worrying all the time when should I go back to work. Monday starts the third week of me being absent. OMg. What's happening to me? Do I need to go back on meds.?
Should I take time off of work, again? Please advise. Thanks. I need your help.