ms Cha,
What do you actually think is going on here ----- I mean other than you being p----d off with him?

You know me, I got the horrors with what was going on with my T. and backed out.
But, I mean seriously, if you were to take time out and assess from both sides, what the...............???

isnt it odd, every one was in those feelings of loving, missing theier Ts over the break, then there seems to be some sort of critical masss type thing, wher all these Ts got together, or some naughty T. fairy with a resentment put something wrong in the Christmas pudding, and all the Ts came back in a bad mood.

Its so difficult huh, because for them, its one mor 50 minute,for us, its what we are trying to restructure our inner selves on.

I was thinking today, its like his, Ts intrapsychic structure made its imprint on mine, I was absorbing everything, downloading from him, so when some of it is a result of his being unaware of his umprocessed stuff, I take in all the bad, unwanted stuff, and its hard to spit out again because when one session became about firefighting the last, things got worse, because I felt urgen to put things right, and he seemed to get defensive.

It became too expensive both emotionally for me, and financially.

So, I've gone back to fellowship. This is helping, but I do still long.

Somehow, you sharing this, helped me to share this.

I'd like to make some suggestions about correcting the situation with your T. but they may not be the most sophisticated!! lol

river