Wow, it's like going back in a time warp. I can relate.

myoasis, what you describe sounds like what I was dx with at age 18: agoraphobia. Afraid of social situations, afraid of the public, afraid of losing/getting a job. Is there someone you can talk to? If you can just get into a routine (at a job, etc) you will build some level of comfort. If you give in to your fears, you could end up unable to leave the house. Don't go there.

You can PM me anytime.

What helped me was 'desensitization' therapy and seeing a therapist to talk to. I tried meds, but they made it worse. But that may be just me. talk therapy was very helpful and most cities offer it at low/no cost.

Hang in there,
VoN