This was a huge, huge, huge, HUGE fear of mine in therapy. It has been a real struggle to believe that he will accept me just as I am. I honestly didn't believe it was possible, and I struggled with it a lot.

BUT....I figured I am PAYING good money, and I really WANT to get better....so I have worked really, REALLY hard at taking risks and being honest about ALL of my feelings. It's scary. And lo and behold, T actually HAS accepted me just as I am. In fact, he says the fact that I am so honest and take so many risks is what endears me to him. Go figure.

For me, the only way to notice progress in therapy is to just keep going, and keep working...and then sometimes, I'll be in a conversation with H, or I'll have a rupture with T that we work through, or I'll notice that I feel okay and accept myself how I am (sometimes!! lol)and I'll realize...I AM making progress. It's just slow and hard to see while it's happening.

I know therapy is really, really hard. But really, you have everything to gain by just being honest about how you're feeling and about your fears. For me, it's the only way to move forward.