the way I got around it was to write it down and take the letter to my T - its hard saying those things - T was the only one I had told about the SA when I was a child and it took a long time before i could talk about it - he was the first one id ever told - so as I told him there were 3 people who knew onthe planet - its so hard but you can do this -

write it down or take a list of what you want to talk to T about - thats all i can think of - I hope things improve for you - they can you know