it is time limited because i'm only in the country for about another six months and then i'm going back to my other t, yeah.

it is hard to let someone in... i find... i'm thinking about her a lot. and... worrying about what she thinks / will come to think of me. that is pretty scary. that i've come to care so fast...

maybe i'm projecting... but i think she is a little like me in the sense of needing time to think. like how i was concerned about some things... and seems she saw that they were concerning afterwards. just took her some time... i guess that means i time awkward things near the end so she can think about them through the week...

i've found myself counting down the days till i see her again. only one more day. yesterday i was going 'only two more days. only two more days to get through. i can do it. just need to get through two more days'. that is pretty fast... guess i always have attached fast to people i clicked with, though.

think we are moving to twice a week from now on. guess that that will kick in the degree of attachment, too. hard... i know that in a sense this semester will go easier for me because of this / her. i'll be able to do the three days at a time living thing... but it will be hard, too... remembering stuff... :-( my life is hard.