Ok with all my trying to be understanding through this, I'm feeling really frustrated tonight. There's times where its almost unbearale. My T and I discussed it today and I'm gonna have to bring it up with bf soon.

I don't even know what to say about it right now. It just tends to hit me especially on Saturdays. When we first moved in, that was the night he said was best for him....he chews tobacco so when I hear him get the can I know its out for the night. Not gonna be making out if he's got that in, ya know? So I get resentful when I hear the thwap of the can. Arrrrrg. I wish I was like I used to be, not wanting sex at all, not enjoying it. Unfortunately I want it with him, and enjoy it immensly. Almost 9 months now.....am I nuts for putting up with this? I mean seriously......but ugh he's so great in most other ways. I'm annoyed too because he got an ipod for Christmas so ts all ab out the ipod now and burning all his cd's to it. He kept talking all week about this big paper he had to write this weekend and then I find out today its an easy paper, not even a research paper. So he made this big deal about all the homework so I didn't prepare myself to have the sex talk this weekend. Ugh....T says I'm codependant in some wasys, like never thinking its the "right time" to discuss this stuff.

K, just had to rant. Sigh.