Thanks for this thread. I hope you are doing better now. I seem to have a lot of days where I pull myself through. Meds do about 50% of the work I have to do the rest. Its difficult to determine. Sometimes I feel like I'm just being a big baby. What scares me is loosing it at work. I have had a couple of manic episodes at work that I can only hope people have forgotten. But I think by not recognizing when I'm at blag stage thats when I get most irriatable. Then comes the explosion. Either manic or depressive either way its an explosion.

I felt it would be enough just to know where I am on a mood scale. But that isn't enough just to know. The "secret" I think is reaching for the right remedy at the right time. Maybe its having a talk with someone. Maybe its an extra trip to the therapist. Maybe its a walk in the sun. Maybe its adjusting meds. For me recognition is part of the equation I am working on this. Finding the appropriate remedy seems to be the other.

What is distressing even when the chosen rememdy works is the nagging question will it work next time? I get discouraged expending so much brain drain to these efforts. I want to be working, solving someone elses problem not mine. I find that frustrating, no doubt because I have more experience loosing myself in work and avoiding my "problem"

I so want to go back to the days where I could work endlessly. Now sometimes I feel I am so focused on me that I can't be anything to anyone else. " A man wrapped up in himself makes a small package" ben franklin

Either way if I work to excess or obcess to excess Its being wrapped up. And wrapped get tight constricting and stiffiling. The unhealthy choice I am more comfortable with. Thats been my habit. I know that is not a healthy choice but it seems the most soothing. Searching for finding and applying the appropriate remedy seems foreign. But I think thats the key.

I recently saw this wwwtapping.com I would be interested if anyone have any experience with this or simular tools.