I have had therapy with 2 men very experienced T's (probably 65 yrs between them for 4 years) but yet my new T of just a few months have had more insight and just understands how a survivor of trauma is and what they need to heal. I have studied and read a lot of psychology therapies and theories and realize it is very hard to be your own therapist. lol My T's specialty is trauma recovery, so maybe that is it, but yet again my other T's were also trauma specialists.

I was feeling really bad for something I did, thought I was becoming an evil person like my mom. But my T saw it in a different light, that I was acting out of defense, out of trying to stay safe, and protect myself from someone who has hurt me before. I KNOW this is common of someone who has gone through torture treatments and abuse, but I didn't see it within MYSELF. She saw things more logically, I was too hard on myself.

Her thoughts completely changed my negative thinking of myself and now I am at ease. She calms me, her words, her presence. She asked me in session what calmed me down and I looked at her and said "your email", she paused and I started to worry because I was showing vulnerability, but she said "good". I still wonder about the pause though, I might ask her next.