My T has shown me "unconditional positive regard". no kidding, in the face of some revelations that have obviously made her reel, she has held onto it. when I come face to face with that, I feel sort of short circuited, because I am not seeing / feeling the reaction that I fully expected, and it makes me think sometimes about whether I am my own worst enemy, condemning and judging when she does not. I don't express this very well, but a great weight of self hatred and sorrow seems (sometimes) to be a little lighter and it makes me want to dance for joy. For me that is saying a lot... thanks Minime, for asking this question and helping me to get the words out!