Its so weird to think about this. Its so weird. I never ever ever ever ever ever imagined I would want this. In fact 9 months ago when I had my intake for therapy a student was starting it and he was a guy and i froze and i couldnt talk and he kept saying you have to talk to me you have to talk to me and I froze and he got th intake coordinator to come in and do the intake and she is my emdr T now. Its just so weird. It took someone I could trust and ask all my questions and have simple things eplained to me. Its just weird. I am looking towards the future and maybe i could be a wife and be loved by a man who smells good.