First of all the definition of the word 'friend' is lost on me. But by no means do I want to hurt the feelings of anybody and I need all the friends I can get.
It's easy to send people friend requests and accept other people's friend requests. It is easy for me to hang out with people sometimes or invite them over for parties. But does that really make them my friends? My question is are your parents and your spouse and your children the only people in this world who are going to care if you exist in this world?
Is my expectation of my friends to care about me the same way my parents and husband care about me too much? I feel like a child who still needs to learn how to make friends! What are the rules? It seems like you need to wait for some time for the trust to build up before you can blurt out your personal problems. But I don't have the patience for it. I feel like pouring my heart out the moment I find someone to talk to, tel them about my depression, but I'm more than certain that if I did that, they would want to run away! That somehow doesn't seem fair! I know that everyone is not meant to be everyone's friend. But it wouldn't hurt if someone stayed back and listened to me and liked me and supported me, no questions asked! Right now there is no one like that in my life besides my husband whom I love. But I need more than him to feel fuller and richer!