i know that a counselor would. but i cant face my problems... like that. day in day out im going to school. what i used to understand perfectly may as well now be hieroglyphics. im flunking no matter how hard i try, no matter how much revision im doing.
my friends.. are fickle. and tbh ive never really liked them. they just accepted me and... nobody else really has since my best friend left last year.
the teachers hate me.
the kids there hate me.
my report card seems to hate me and its just...
i just need to get away for a bit.
the only thing making me think about this is my boyfriend, i guess.
i went to his yesterday. and hes just so understanding so... perfect.
the thing about me is... i cant really live for myself.
im kinda stupid.
im immature at times.
im fat,
i have a large nose, my eyes are too close together, my cheeks are too big, my chins too masculine..
its just hard to find any reasons anymore.

+ ty for that cause.. id never really reallised. everyone Is fickle.
but i just... i dont know how to live for ME.
x