I have a lot of trouble opening up to anyone at all. I can't speak my troubles, I can't write them down. This morning I managed to write a tiny bit though. I couldn't get on PC this morning, but what I wrote, I wrote to a friend on here. It was so difficult and it was so painful to see it written down on paper. I didn't write much before I had to stop.

[FONT="Arial Black"][/FONT] Poor Moon, I know just how that feels. My body is a dam holding all the pain in. One crack, and the whole structure will shatter. We feel fragile - but actually I think we are the strongest people on earth, to keep carrying on day after day against such odds, wading up to our hips through all this psychic s***, pulling ourselves along with that little thread of hope. You are a warrior.


My head is such a mess, so overwhelmed. Just wish we could have a break from it once in a while.[/QUOTE]

[FONT="Arial Black"][/FONT] You took words right out of my mouth there. How often I've wished I could be stricken with amnesia! Or just be something happy like a cat or a dog, without any of this awful self-consciousness.