gimmieice - I have been seeing my T since October, and I agree.. it does take time to get comfortable with someone. I'm really worried though, because I have this feeling that I'm running out of time - which is probably illegitimate. I think that a conversation about what would put me in a hospital or cause an end to my sessions would be a really good thing to have. I'll keep it in mind for my next session. Thanks a lot
(((P7))) I'm so glad you were strong enough to talk to your T about the SA. I talked to mine too - it was one of the hardest things I'd ever done. I just blurted it all out and asked to change the subject and talk about it another time. As for writing things down - I do have a list of things that I need to talk about
She knows I have a list, and also that I'm scared to talk about it
. I think that writing everything will be very useful, though I would also be too scared and self conscious to read it...I'll keep a journal for the rest of break and maybe give it to her. Thanks for having faith in the fact that things will improve. I really appreciate it.
Skeksi - Lol!! you sound just like me
I lied about all of that stuff on my intake.. and I have to tell her now
I think I may combine your advice with P7's and write that I lied.. and leave that with my T. That sounds entirely doable. Thanks
(((((Deli)))) I've said it before... but really, I'm glad you could open up after such a long time. It gives me confidence that I'll be able to do it too.
CC - I think that journaling is a great idea. I'm happy that it helped you, and I'll certainly try it. Thanks a lot for the good luck wishes, and good luck to you too
MissC -
I am trying
Sannah - It's really helpful to know that I'm not the only one that freaks out and gets flustered and embarrassed ... and I'm sorry it has to happen to you too. I think that you're right - the first step to getting better is being honest about my feelings, and I will be honest. I will tell my T when I am embarrassed and hurting, and maybe it will be easier to be truthful then. Thanks
((((((Sannah)))) ((((((everyone))))) thanks so much
Ella