It feels like no.

Even when I'm in a good mood there is an underlying feeling of gloom, just wanting for everything to end because life is too hard.

Just wanting to disapear takes up a lot of my time.

I try and look for hope, but cannot find it.

No one has the answer, is that because there isn't one to be found? People are just living for the point of living, no other reason. It's hard to live and hard to die, because you are scared of what you leave behind. I'm not sure what I want. Just not this.