thanks for that, I appreciate what you are saying but it's a little bit different for me right now. I don't expect anyone to be more sensitive, I'm just baffled at people's behavior towards others sometimes. I am sensitive to it because my dad loves to make people feel bad, he likes screaming at you (profanity, personal insults etc) when he's drunk and he's always drunk, so pretty much if I am going to go and see him I know that this is what's going to happen. On rare occasions he's actually nice, but that involves screaming/singing painfully into your ear, slobbering on you, repeating himself 5-10 times, taking over every conversation with his pointless rants etc etc. And everyone is going to look at you like you are the one who should be used to this by now, and it should not bother you because that's "just how he is". I don't know why I'm surprised anymore by anyone's bad behavior, this is part of what troubles me. If I could be used to it and expect it I think I'd be in a better frame of mind to handle even the little things, like what that jerk of a woman did that morning.

This may not make any sense I'm just not in a good frame of mind right now, I was around him last night and once again wondering why I would feel guilty cutting him completely the hell out of my life now that my mom is free of him and her soul is at rest. I've done it a few times but maybe it's time it's for good.