Thank you, sometimes I feel like I'm the only one in this battle. My husband is always here for me and with me, even though he is not Jacob's real Dad, he has been through it all with me for the last 8 1/2 years, but still I feel so alone sometimes. Every one just sees him as a uncontrollable child. Until you actually live with this type of person, and do the research, you cannot even begin to understand. Even then it's hard. I often wonder if there was something I did during pregnancy or why this happened to him. Once when he was around 3 we were on a camping trip. My oldest son (10 Years older that Jake) was on one of those cement playground toys that are on a spring buried in the ground and Jake was standing in front of him, while he was rocking back & forth he fell off of it back wards. The ride on toy came forward just as Jake was approaching it and it hit him in the face. I was sitting watching and couldn't move as I saw this happening. I saw Jake fly back wards from the impact of this thing. His left eye immediately swelled so bad that his eye couldn't open. I called our Dr. and he said to watch him through the night for convulsion. I took him to the emergency room the next day when we got home. I could not believe that there were no broken bones in the facial area at all. They said that due to his age, his bones were still quite flexible. I always bring this up to the Doctors, but none have ever thought it was relevant. I am definitely going to let the Neurologist know about it. I don't know if it had any thing to do with the personality disorders because I saw that early on, but I'm now wondering about the Mental Retardation (god I hate that word). I prefer to call it LD, we don't even say that in our Special Needs School District. But, thank you for the comments and advice. I have a tendency of beating myself up for this and sometimes I feel like I don't do enough, especially when it comes to interacting with Jake, but its hard to get someone to do things when they are not socially interactive.