I really wish I could just sit with you and hug you. I want the pain your feeling to go away 'cause I know what it's like (unfortunately if I told my parents my thoughts I just get "well hurry up and do it then"). You're a wonderful person Tao, do you not think your nephew would enjoy getting to know his Aunt?
I was looking at some of the pictures you put up earlier... of things you've made... you've got talent hunny . Do you get enjoyment from doing that all?

If I were in a better place maybe I could do more... but take care
Molly