I know the feeling of wanting to go far away. Maybe you can try to do something with the memories and pictures. Could you write about them and then tear them up? Could you try to focus on one thing in the room you are in, really focus on it and notice every detail until only that thought is in your mind and not the fighting and pictures and memories? Or maybe you could find a box, any kind of box, and either concentrate on putting the bad thoughts in there or write them and put them in the box? I wish peace for you tonight and always.