believe that there is another way.
One of the worst things about depression is that we have to trust others to help us.

From personal experience, I never liked taking too much help from people; I'd rather help THEM than the other way around. So going into a position where I needed help and couldn't give back hurt me.
I have trust issues... not horrible ones but they're there. I've been dropped too many times to make it come easy.
But to get better we HAVE to trust, because we CAN'T see what's best for us. x.x When I was in my most down moments I firmly believed what you're saying now tao. That there was nothing but that option. My boyfriend would tell me I was wrong. He was the only one I trusted enough to tell really. But my trust... it was so hard. He ... did help though, he helped me to trust him and the people around me, showed me that I had to. Now, months later, I am beginning to see just... a glimps of sunshine here and there. I still have it bad. I've had a bad few days but now, unlike before, I REMEMBER, can look forward to a way out that is not death.

So I know... I just told you a long story of mine. You'll say that's me, that it's not true for you.
I guess, right now, you need to let your guard down and choose to trust.
Trust your T. Go to your T. Ask for the help you need.
Maybe the T can help you see it too, in time.

I know it's hard, please trust

loads of hugs