In my real life, I have a great hubby and great kids and a fairly close family and two pugs. Even with a fairly stable family, I am known for prefering my pugs company to any human company. And I do. Family and friends are important but some things can't be helped and we have to accept them as best we can and try to not let it ruin our life. I can imagine a twin would be very hard. I said my family life is fairly stable because I do have a similer problem as you. I have 5 brothers and am very close to all of them. My younfest brother and I have worked together in the fall for years making balsom fur wreaths. It was our time together every year. We did lunches together out in the gravel pit, We hunted birds at noon sometimes, For those 8 weeks a year, we werte inseperable at wreath time. He is 11 years younger than I and Mother was very busy on the farm so I tended to him a lot. He was like my kid. Three years ago, one day when I asked him what time he wanted to go to lunch, he said he was busy. The same thing the next day, so I told him to let me know when he ready to do lunch again. I didn't want to pry. Thought he was maybe having lady problems or something. Anyway, I still have not heard from him. Everyone is flabergasted because we were always so close. I have no idea to this day why. He won't say. It kills me. I lost sleep literally every night for the first year. I still cry if I think about him I miss him so much. But it hurts less all the time....