I know you never meant to hurt me but I would be lying to say that I wasn't. I am, I feel very raw. As I said last night, I don't even know who I am anymore. I come across to others completely different than how I see myself. Where did the 'me' go? She's left very lost and confused. I'm really sorry that I misinterpreted your comments. I wish I had received them the way they were in your heart but I obviously didn't. I hope you can forgive me the time I now need to process my feelings and eventually move on. I'm very glad that our friendship is intact. I know you never meant me any harm. But even with that, they had a major effect on me. I need time to heal. My head is still spinning, I'm still crying. I'm raw. I know you didn't mean for that to happen. It's my f'd up brain. I guess it's pretty easy now to see why others have abandoned me. I thank you for not doing that. But still I can't deny my feelings. Sometimes we all hurt people and we don't mean to, I know I have many times. You're probably hurt that I'm hurting and I'm sorry. I'm just sorry.