Yes, there was a big bump, although at the time it felt like "the end." It was really a blow and has had a lasting effect on me. I feel like it helped me see my marriage for what it really was. It's a sight that isn't pretty and that I had been protecting myself from for many years. It's been painful to see that. But we're on our feet again and moving on with the proceedings.

Lemon, when I was depressed, my memory was terrible. When I came out from under that, my memory got better. It was great to be able to remember things again. I had thought I was just getting senile prematurely but it was the depression. Maybe your memory will return when the anxiety subsides. Sleeping well was really important for me too.

I think I understand that. I was taking a class last year and a neurobiologist was lecturing one day and said some things about depression that really made me feel better. Like depression can be advantageous for survival and he had examples of rodent behavior that illustrated this. That made me think a lot about depression and how it can actually be evolutionarily advantageous to be depressed. It can help you survive! This made me feel tremendously better about my depression, like it had a purpose and adaptive value. It wasn't just my body going wacko for no reason at all.