For me, any new thing or change causes much anxiety and paranoia, especially in a relationhip. I think of anything that can possibly happen or go wrong and get it in my head that it will. Now, as you can see this post is about facebook. Let me tell you i have had a facebook for quite sometime but i never can go on it except on my phone so i dont update stuff that much. My boyfriend recently signed up for it, alot of his family and friends have talked him into it because they have it as well. Fine, i mean i have it. But oh my i have become crazy paranoid about him meeting, reuniting with a girl from the past or something. he knows how i feel adn has said i can watch him do it, etc that he wont cheat on me. i cant help it but get crazy i keep telling him its going to happen and that its addicting and annoying, etc (facebook that is) he can also check it on his phone which this morning i noticed he updated his status before he even texted me. I am literally driving myself insane. We do live together, he has on his facebook pictures of us and that he is in a realationship with me, etc. That isnt enough. Enought would be for that stuff to never exist. I hate that i dont know the people he grew up with adn what happened with all of them i hate it! I just dont know what to do about it im going to drive us both nuts. I know i need therapy but my insurance does not cover it and i cant afford it at this time. I am on meds which help but my way of thinking needs to be changed.

sorry this is so long and thank you for reading. any advice would be sooo appreciated.