I left a car at a repair workshop few hours ago and the guy said he will call and say what needs to be changed. Yeah... i left my cell in the car. I called and told him another phone no. as soon as i realized it. He said ok, i will call as soon as i will get a look at your car. That should take about half an hour. I left my car there 3 hours ago. He should have called already. I‘m anxious and scared and confused and other stuff too, just losing control. And when I lose control it happens (“it” = dissociation). And what if the guy calls and I’m practically a 7 years old child? I need to understand what he will say, I can’t be like “car, what car, oh that car, emmm… idk” and i need to be able to drive.
I need to cut to stop that from happening. I just need to. Don’t actually want to, but need to. I can’t think clearly already