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Jan 05, 2009, 01:53 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2008
Location: Not sure where i live and no one cares anyway
Posts: 1,138
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Im nothing, im useless and im pathetic and nobody wants me and all i do anymore is cry and cry and shake and panic starts and the self injury happens and its all too much and then the mania hits and its all good for a bit then it all comes back crashing down on me and i cant take it much more i have appt for new pdoc in 2wks not sure if i can handle it much more - i just want to scream and beat myself up i hate me i really do - i can not remember a time that i didnt hate me - i always have -not sure why im writing all this - nothing helps and im not really writing for anyones response i just need to get it out -sorry
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Since you ask, most days I cannot remember.
I walk in my clothing, unmarked by that voyage.
Then the almost unnameable lust returns.
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http://purplebutterfly.psychcentral.net/
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