Hi...I am new here so I hope you don't mind that I am just jumping in here. Your post is very similar to my situation.

I was diagnosed with BPD years back when I was in the hospital. However...I, like many other people have been diagnosed with many different disorders.

My moods tend to swing up and down. It will feel like I am doing ok for a while and than next thing you know I am falling so far down into that black hole again. I go on stretches as well.

I see my therapist off and on and it seems to me that I tell her how well I'm doing and than the next thing you know I'm so far down again and I feel like she may think I'm lying about when I WAS doing well. I have gone for 6 months without seeing her but lately I have been seeing her more again.

Your situation all around actually sound very much like mine. It's really hard when those bad times hit. Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to get through it again.

Take care.