Nightmares last night. Drowning in blood and couldn't save anyone
More like reliving time with Charley
Flashbacks while your sleeping/in a twilight?

Depressed today. Lots of memories, many were good, Some made me start laughing which led to tears and that's good, I guess.
Tried to nap but woke up startled and sweating, not knowing where I was.

Looks like he did reach his limit 'cause he left a note for us.
One note with short messages to the six of us, no apology, none needed, he was hurting. More than we knew...more than we saw in his eyes
He'll be cremated tomorrow and we'll spread his ashes over "our" lake on Wednesday. He wanted nothing to do with anything military...
The lake is where all of us fished, and if we were lucky, we cleaned and cooked 'em. Not lucky than we had peanut butter crackers, RC cola and moonpies--a Southern thing.
I think it calls for rain Wednesday
Charley would love it--us trying to throw ashes in a downpour.

our little group has gotten smaller
every little group does, though
side effect of becoming an antique/living long enough to bury 'em

damn I'm tired but leery of trying to nap
Cap