Dalia,
I actually was diagnosed with depression for the first time, January of last year. Thats what actually brought me to therapy in the first place, while there I finally let out that I was SA as a child.

I didn't want to take meds because I was a student and I had no idea how the side effects would be and being in such an intense program I didn't want to risk it. I did however decided to go to therapy once a week.

By summer time I was finally starting to feel good. That all started to change when my mom was diagnosed with cancer and passed away a couple months later.

I think it's all starting to hit me, the past two weeks I have cried myself to sleep every night. Thats very unusual for me. I have thought about meds alot lately.

Today was better though, I started back to school and seeing so many familar faces was really great. I really need structure. I have this thing about sitting home and doing nothing. My mind cannot handle it. I know I should learn to just sit with the pain but I am not very good at it.

I'm hoping school will pull me out of this some. If it doesn't work this time then I may ask my doctor about meds.

Hangingon