I started dating my girlfriend 3 years ago. I was 16, she was 15 but we were always two grades apart. I was a Junior in highschool and she was a freshman. Alot happend that first year, with cheating, and we were both virgins at the time, But she was pretty sexual other ways, and not with me. Alot of cheating went on and finally she slept with somone. It's haunted me for years and till this day i can't get over it. We got back togther after that a few months later, things were really good because i loved her to death still. But after a few months i wanted her to suffer, and feel my hurt. I wanted her to pay.

I wasn't the same sweet guy she met a year ago. She understood and stayed with me up until about 2 months ago. I'm 19, and shes 18 now. I'm a sophmore in college and shes a senior in highschool. I'm still in love with her but she can't live with a heavy heart for mistakes she knows she made 3 years ago and i understand that, a few days ago she slept with somone else, i was heartbroken and hit rock bottom. I've been like this for years and ive always been ashamed to get help.

I want to be happy for once and go on with her or without her. I'm not a bad looking kid either, i just can't bring myself to get with another girl because i'll feel awful. I can't really function without knowing where she is or what shes doing. Its an awful life style and it's been non-stop for 3 years.

I just wrote this fast im sure i left out details i just want help as soon as possible.