my t has asked me if i wanted to return a few times after especially hard sessions...i think that is a "normal" thing...she saw you were upset with what she said and maybe with what you said to her and perhaps gave you the option of bowing out of therapy if YOU wanted. she wasn't telling you not to return...but providing you the choice to not do so if you chose.

moonkin saying any wages you might earn have to go towards food for lunch (and might as well be mickey d's)...well you know that's a sign of being an adult. you are 18 or 19 now...buy some cold cuts or lunch stuff and it comes out pretty cheap if you bring something...much cheaper than buying lunch out.

it's about being an adult and responsibility for one's being. i recall you worrying that your parents were stealing some money from your account...if you go to the bank they can fix it so no one has access to the account but you.

i don't think your t is trying to harm you. maybe she just needed to reestablish boundaries in order to prevent burnout. you have had nothing but praise for her in the past. if you feel she can still help you to heal then let her. don't fault her for asking for insurance info or for the amount she charges for her hourly fee. she is a trained medical professional...you wouldn't expect your medical doctor to work for minimum wage would you? why do you expect her?

personally i would giver her another chance. i know i tend to react in haste when i become upset. i know i need to go back and listen again to things when i am calmer and get a better take on the situation...because i find that what i heard and what was actually said are usuually two different things. but that is just me, and maybe not you.

good luck with your appointment.