It seems like everything is always my fault. If something goes wrong my husband says it is because of me. If i do not get perfect scores in school, then i am not good enough to go to school. I am just wasting time.
If i want something it is to much of a bother, i do not deserve it. I am so sick of hearing all this all the time. no wonder i cannot quit thinking what if? so many what ifs and i am not acting on them at least for now.

It takes alot of effort to want to even get on the computer, how stupid is that.

So i guess a question i have now that i complained again is What did I do wrong?

If anything goes wrong go ahead and blame me. i probally influenced it somehow, i am used to it.