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OH It makes me ache to read your posts. I so understand what you mean.

I don't know how long you have been in T but the "touch rule" that is today may not always be; perhaps your experiences are too close to your T's own childhood but others' are not, and by giving you hugs T would risk a trigger too; there may be lots of explanations.

your questions about therapy... my goodness you articulate them so well. I don't think I can respond that well. I can only speak for me. But I find myself sort of hunched over, hugging myself maybe to protect from more hurt, unable to trust, unable to see the good side, unable to explore life - it's like all my muscles are cramped up - and my experience of T is to stretch me (and yes it hurts) but later on when we come back to some of the things that hurt so much to stretch before, I find that I do stretch a little farther than before without hurting. To me that's a wonder, every time I discover it, and I am hopeful that in time I will be able to stand up, and live, as a whole person.

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