I am 31 and have BP 2 and major depression. I currently take Seroquel and Effexor. I am on my second marriage, and we've been together for 4 years, married 3. I am a compulsive liar and have problems with fidelity. I have a love/sex addiction and have always used sex as a way to feel connected to a man - which I learned the hard way has the complete opposite effect on a relationship. In my current marriage, I have had an emotional affair with a long-time friend, which included sexual email exchanges; I have had a one-night stand; and have been having an affair with a coworker for a few months, although we haven't been physical in a long time. I have always had issues with being open and honest and when I'm called out I usually lie (it only happens in my personal life...I don't lie in my job...in fact, the negative behaviors are only in my personal life...I actually am a very competent, sucessful, and highly-regarded individual when it comes to my work). Despite the negative consequences, especially in my current marriage, I continue to lie about my behaviors and the extent of my relationship with my coworker. My DH knows that I was physical once with my coworker, as he encouraged me to do so because it turns him on. He has his own sexual dysfunctions and each time I was physical with someone, he had encouraged me to do it. However, afterwards it always upset him and he lashed out at me for it. It's complicated....

Anyway, I guess my point is to ask if anyone else has ever had issues with compulsive lying or cheating. I am in therapy and am hoping to work a lot of this out, but I don't know how to stop. Even in the face of losing everything unless I just tell the truth, I hold back and don't disclose everything.

Thanks for reading my post.