Hi everyone,

Im new to this forum, actually found this place by mistake and joined. Was looking for advise reguarding berevement, how long is normal etc. And when i read through some of the threads already written in this section i feel really selfish and bad.

There are really sad, touching posts on here about people losing their mum, dad and even kids.

My loss is my beloved dog Scooby, and some people will be like wow a dog is that all! But Scooby was my baby. I have never felt pain and saddness like i did the day i lost him. He had such a horrible death.

My boyfriend was walking him in fields near our house. Scooby liked to chase the deer (he's a lurcher - built for hunting and chasing game) he chased a deer onto nearby trainway tracks. My boyfriend couldn't get him off the line. He phoned me, i was stupidly working an overtime that morning. My boyfriend was screaming over the phone in a panic because a train was coming. I could heard the train coming over the phone, and my boyfriend screaming for Scooby to come to him, but he didn't. I heard the train get closer and then Scooby scream. I can hear it even still. Scooby died in my boyfriends arms. He too shares guilt over his death.

Im still crying for Scooby all the time, i think of him always and it still hurts. Im having nightmares about him and they scare me. I can't move on and in a way don't want to. I never want to forget him. Why do these bad things happen?

Scooby was only 3 years old when he was taken from us. Still a baby. My baby.