this is jmo but we "own" our therapy, meaning what we put into it. is what we'll get out of it. i don't know if you are being totally honest with your therapist but i'd encourage you to come clean if you're not. the results will astound you. you will regain control over your life by leaning the tools of healthy behavior and applying them in your life.
i don't mean to sound harsh, it's the reality of the situation. you stated you lie,etc even in the face of losing everything. you stand to lose a lot based on what you wrote and you don't have to go there. hope this helps. 
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