Thursday at my IOP meeting, we had a new guy come in for treatment and he noticed the scars on my left arm and how deep they were and I could feel him staring at them. During break, we all went out to smoke and he asked if I was a, "freak or something". I know it was ignornace on his part, but it still hurt for him to say that to me. I've wanted to cut every since... It's been awhile since I last cut, but the urge is strong now. It's so easy for me to get a blade since my dad owns his own construction and he keeps blades and sharp objects around all the time. Can't I cut just once? It'll make things so much better.