I have purposely left out what was said to me and what it was in relation to. I think my response holds meaning even without the content of what I'm replying to. I hope the sender does not feel threatened or offended by my answering this way.

Having the ability to speak more clearly doesn't make a person stronger or less vulnerable. I am constantly invalidated because I'm smart and well spoken. My pain is dismissed because I do not react the same as others. And when I do react, I get torn apart because people are so convinced that I'm just an ordinary person with no problems worth acknowledging.

My brother used to defend me when we were kids, but he used to beat me up too. No one since has ever defended me. I fight all my battles alone. I struggle through life alone. I hurt far more than anyone cares to believe, because smart well spoken people can't possibly feel any amount of significant pain. Smart, well spoken people should be happy just for the fact of being smart well spoken people. Is it any wonder I have spent years trying not to be smart. Sometimes I hate it and wish it wasn't so. I wish I could be like everyone else so I could be treated like everyone else. But I cannot escape who I am. And as such I must suffer a life of isolation and invalidation.