..triggered. I've never understood it. I'm starting to feel better than I have in the longest time, but I want to feel bad. I haven't cut since..Feb? maybe March? I don't even remember. I don't count days/months, makes it easier on me. Don't feel like I have to make some sort of goal before giving in. Maybe, is it, I'm uncomfortable with the changes? Or to remember not to go back? Or just that I've lost so many methods of coping (cutting, drinking, smoking, pills) that I want to go back? I don't know. I'm just tired..bed time. And confused..so very confused.

Kayleigh