You sound like me for the past year of my life, except I'm not married. If your hubby isn't willing to be there for you or to learn about your disease, then maybe it's best to seperate for a while&work on the marriage counseling. Everything is NOT ALL YOUR FAULT! Just because you're bp doesn't mean he shouldn't care or act as if it's not HIS problem-you're married&that means that you're in this together no matter how hard it is. It's tough to get the bp diagnosis&hopefully things can work out for you. I don't know where I stand right now, but I do know that I'm on disability&don't have the money to support myself. I'm looking for a job&possibly a new life. Good luck!