I'm glad I'm not he only one who freaks out during rape scenes on TV or in movies. I literally have to get up&walk out of the room. I was raped&sodomized by 2 neighbor teenagers when I was from the ages of 7-10. What's bad is my family was so dysfunctional I thought that if I told I'd get in trouble as if it was something I was willingly doing. The other bad thing is that one of their mothers knew what was going on&did nothing. I know she could hear me crying&struggling to get away-her bedroom was across the hall from his. I also raked my fingernails down both sides of his face once to get him off of me&to bring attention to what he was doing to me&his Mom punished me for scratching his face. She never asked why I did it. She just spanked me bare bottom in front of him&his family&told me that she'd tell my parents the next time anything like that happened.
I'm just learning my triggers&this posting reminded me that so far I know that raised voices, anyone trying to hang on to me or hold me down&rape scenes in TV/films are my triggers.
I'm sorry if this triggered anyone-it's just that 2008 was the first year that I started remembering about this stuff&it's been a long hard road.