Thank you so much for the support and the reply. We start marriage counseling in a week and a half and I am praying to God and anyone else that is listening that it works because I don't want to lose my marriage over this. I love my husband, but right now we both hate who I've become and that I think scares both of us...it crazy, I just feel like someone else but I really hope this works. Tommorow is my first day of actual therapy for myself so I'm hoping it goes well, but still very nervous. Thanks for the reply. I really appreciate it. Take care.