Hi Leslie!

When I read the beginning of your post I remembered back to the end of my therapy (which lasted maybe a year) and I asked my therapist if I could see my file. I think I asked at a point just out of curiosity, and I laughed at it, mostly because I already pretty much knew before I set foot in her office what she had written down.

My therapy involved repressed memories as well. As I started sharing that with other people in my life that I trusted I came to realize just how common that is.

I see you are a Christian. Without going into the biblical faith aspect of it, you have nothing to be ashamed of. We are who we are..... or were. You can hardly be blamed for not wanting to be abandoned. As far as BPD is concerned, you don't know the inner life of other people, and I dare say that there are many people that have other issues that aren't apparent on the outside.

I recently diagnosed myself with BPD and I actually laughed (I like laughing) at it because it's me to a "T" as I said in another post. I just refuse to let it get me down. I am who I am neurosis and all. *hugs self*

Anyhoo, I probably wasn't any help whatsoever (sorry!), and I am praying for you sis in Christ.