You're so right. this site has been quite a blessing. It helps to know you're not alone. I have very supportive friends and family who are sympathetic. Here I've found empathy which is great. I've had such severe suicidal thoughts I've considered walking places but in some cases I have to cross a bridge and that doesn't seem like a good idea either. I can usually sit in the car till I feel like I can drive. It just looks like I'm letting it warm up. have you added a stimulant to wellbutrin? I know the wellbutrin is a stimulant, I'm just not quite feeling clear headed or motivated, just awake. My pdoc mentioned ritalin and adderall. I'm thinking I should be open to either.