Huge trigger warning


It was thanksgiving night and I was 9 years old. My baby sister had just died a month ago and i was sad. I was so hungry that night as my mom was starving us again and she had made dinner for my little brothers and not the girls as the girls are evil and she hated us and starved us. She sent me and my sister out to steal her wine and whip cream for my brother. It was dark and cold and no store was open except 7-11. She always had us steal stuff all the time. So we walked to 7-11 and tried but the clerk sent us home. On the way back I was afraid of facing my mom knowing she was going to beat the crap out of us or threaten to kill us. I didnt hear the man running after us and my sister said run and I froze and the guy ran pass me and I said sorry to him for some reason then he turned around and my sister was gone and it was just me. I thought he was a security person from the store and when he started doing stuff to me I thought he was looking for stolen stuff until he picked me up. Alot of stuff happened I cant talk about yet its to yucky. But then he raped me and said alot of stuff to me that i cant talk about yet and stuff. I felt myself floating to a black place and I knew if i went there i woudl stay and I tried not to even though I wanted to. Alo of yucky things happened and one thing i can share is that I knew my mom wouldnt come looking for me. That was a yucky feeling. Later when he left I stood in the ally by our house and saw my mom and my sister and brother she called us liers and stuff and shook me and hurt me. Then she said she was going to call the police I dont know why and she told my sister and I to go home and left us alone and on the way home the guy was there again and he grabbed my sister and I was frozen and couldnt move or talk. I watched him carry her away. Finally i could run and went to my mom and I had a hard time talking and i couldnt make my brain or mouth work and the cops came and was yelling at me to tell them where my sister was and I tired but I couldnt talk and they put me in the back of the cop car and drove me down the ally and we found my sister.

Ok thats all I can do. There is so much more I cant talk about its to much. This is a big step for me so be nice. Im sorry i cant tell more.